How did you feel when you were diagnosed with an abdominal aortic aneurysm?

Well, mine was a little, my kind of perception was a little confused because I had both a suspicious nodule for the prostate, which was identified a slight asymmetry in the prostate gland, the left one I think, and in addition to that I had this kind of challenge with the aneurysm and what I found difficult to do was to, you know, assess the relative importance of each of those two conditions which were completely unrelated and required separate treatment. And in fact, one could very well interfere with the other. So how did I feel? Well, there was a little kind of searching for clear guidance, but there was also a real kind of hesitation in my mind, uncertainty in my mind as to which should be treated first or could they be done together. and one of the things that I kind of worked out during this journey because of the complication between the two conditions was that, you know, no two doctors will agree with each other, they will have, they will have a slightly different perspective on these conditions and one might say that the other is more important, the other condition is more important, whereas the consultant for the other condition might say no, no, you need to get the other one dealt with first. It was also further confused because in the Nairobi hospital, you know, there was no real clear guidance from them as to which was more important, and indeed when I was referred for a biopsy to assess the, you know, the potential kind of risk related to the asymmetry in the prostate. When I went there I had an ultrasound scan and the radiologist who was doing that said oh you don't need or whatever the pathologist whatever it was said you don't need you don't need a biopsy so you can go home. So all of that kind of served to make the you know the situation confused and I wasn't clear as to which was more important. And just to add briefly, the vascular surgeon said, look, you know, your AAA, your abdominal aortic aneurysm is round about the actual, you know, the size that would mandate dealing with this through surgery of some description. But it's not an emergency, but you need to get it done, to your point about the ticking time bomb. So, yeah, my emotion was uncertainty and a bit of confusion. And really, I just wanted somebody to say, OK, you need to have it done now or whenever. And, yeah, this is more important than the potential for cancer. And that can be dealt with in slower time. But that was the clear problems of confusion, uncertainty and, yeah, a little bit of fear. you