How Parkinson's has impacted memory.

Yeah, I mean I think sometimes it's, I forget things sometimes, it's, I think what it is is my brain works at a normal speed, so you know my brain is pretty much doing what it's always done, my muscles are so slow to react, then I think, you know, like it's like when I was, um, I was making a tuna melt for lunch and, um, you know, I thought I got everything out and so I made the tuna and made the mayonnaise and stuff like that and actually made my own mayonnaise. So I made the mayonnaise and put the tuna in and then, you know, I put, I put, then I put stuff back in the fridge went to put it in the oven and under the grill and I put it in the fridge and I was looking everywhere for it and I know it sounds well I know it sounds like well everyone does that everyone forgets things but it happens to me it's just regularity you know I'll do something and I think I'm just going I'm just going um And I'm doing something, like, say I want to go watch a movie. So I think about what movie I want to get. And so I'll get a DVD off the shelf. I'll go home, I'll come back, turn the TV on, thinking I've put a DVD in the machine, and I haven't done anything. It's like, I think I've done it, and I haven't. I think that's probably the best way to put it, really. I've done something and I actually haven't. We bought one to the supermarket. I was unpacking the stuff in the supermarket the other day and I put the Comfort Lenore stuff in the fridge for some reason. It's just silly things like that I've noticed I do. In the grand scheme of things, it doesn't sound particularly daunting in the actual fact it's quite amusing, but I think when they start to add up with other symptoms, it becomes a bit worrying because the Parkinson's people are quite prone to dementia. So that worries me a little bit. But I'm always one of those people that, you know, I can't do anything about it. All I can do is take the symptoms I've got now. You know, if I get dementia, I get dementia. There's nothing I can do about it. I'm not lying in bed worrying about it. I make plans, but I don't make a will, that kind of stuff. I don't know how many years I've got left. I don't know how many years I've got to be able to talk to you like this. I don't I don't know how many, I have no idea, but if I sit down here thinking, well, oh, this is the last time I'm gonna talk to the, I'm gonna end up crying and dying and sort of wasting the time I have left. No, no, no, Parkinson's doesn't actually kill you, but wasting the time I have left is like a functioning person, if that makes sense. You know, like a person that can, I can get up and go to the store, even though it's regulated by my medication. I can still do it. I can still go and watch TV, I can still go to the movies, I can still go shopping, I can still go to the tax office like I did this morning. So yeah, even though it's kind of, it's sort of, there are caveats to what you do, I can still do them. You know, I don't know how long it is before I end up in a wheelchair. I may not end up in a wheelchair, I may end up, I don't know, like my eyesight got better. You know, over the past few years, my glasses have been reduced in prescription, so in fact I don't need them anymore. I can see better without them than I can with them. So, you know, who knows, maybe, and also next week some bright 12 year old might come up with a cure. You never know, you don't know what's around the corner. So, you know, it will be, it'll be a 12 year old that discovers it, it's bound to be.