Did you go through a grieving period or denial?

Did you go through a grieving period or a period of denial? No, I didn't. What I did, I didn't, well, I don't think I did. Looking back, I don't think I did. What I did, I went through a period of not denial, but of embarrassment. I knew I had, I never denied I had it, but I didn't like other people knowing I had it. And that was, I suppose that is, it's a semi-denial. I didn't deny it to myself. I knew I had it. And people ask me, I'd say, oh yeah, the Parkinson's. But it was like a really, I found myself very embarrassed by it to start with. Very, very embarrassed. And that's, again, that's because, you know, you have a normal life, you're a normal person, and then something happens. And, you know, it wasn't sort of a, I didn't deliberately set out to become, to hide it or anything like that, but I did become, I was aware I was becoming acutely embarrassed. And the point where I think I was insane was one day I fell over and rather than say I got Parkinson's, I just made something up, because I was so embarrassed by it. But, um, eventually I kind of, I kind of thought, well, I sort of, I outed myself, if you like, and, um, I, I, I became Mr. Parkinson's and then, and then, and then, and then sort of wrote about it and blogged about it. and then yeah I went from there really but I think a lot of people do I think I like any on this I guess a lot of people do because I've got going to you know don't believe it and don't really think about it and and eventually you can't hide it you just can't hide it.